Ben susarım, o söyler; siz de aşağıda okursunuz…

kafamı duvara vurmadan
tanıyabilmek seni
beyninin içindekileri anlayabilmek
ve yitirmeden, yüzündeki anlık tebessümü
bütün saatleri öylece durdurabilmek için
çıldırasıya paraladım kendimi
lanet olsun!
artık sigarayı üç pakete çıkardım günde
olsun be! ne olacaksa olsun!
bu da benim sana
ayrılırken şikayetim olsun…

gözyaşım utangaç boynunun inciden kolyesi olsun
her damla vefasız teninde bir veda busesi olsun isterim
sende ben gibi yan ömrüne hep ağla hep ağla
bu benden son dua
bu benden ayrılık hediyesi olsun….

At the mirror you fix your hair and put your makeup on
You’re insecure about what clothes to wear
I can’t see nothing wrong

To me you look so beautiful when you can’t make up your mind
It’s half past eight, it’s getting late
It’s OK, take your time

Standing here my hands in my pockets
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello
At the mirror you fix your hair and put your makeup on
You’re insecure about what clothes to wear
I can’t see nothing wrong
To me you look so beautiful when you can’t make up your mind
It’s half past eight, it’s getting late
It’s OK, take your time
Standing here my hands in my pockets
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello…

I once knew a girl
In the years of my youth
With eyes like the summer
All beauty and truth
In the morning I fled
Left a note and it read
Someday you will be loved.
I cannot pretend that I felt any regret
Cause each broken heart will eventually mend
As the blood runs red down the needle and thread
Someday you will be loved

You’ll be loved you’ll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You may feel alone when you’re falling asleep
And everytime tears roll down your cheeks
But I know your heart belongs to someone you’ve yet to meet
Someday you will be loved

You’ll be loved you’ll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

You’ll be loved you’ll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved
Someday you will be loved

Bölük pörçük hayallerim duruyor önümde
Sevdiğim kadar sevilmedim
Buram buram kokun hala yatağımın üzerinde
O da kalmaz gider üç beş güne

Bu saatten sonra gönül dakika durmaz
Onca vaatten sonra
Yalancı yalancı sana kimse inanmaz

Beni sevemedin ya
Şu belimi bir saramadın ya
O zaman en hayırlısı olsun hakkımızda
Git hadi burada durma
Ama lütfen kapıyı vurma
İki medeni insanız biz
Bu kadar olsun farkımız da

Adresim aynı, Kaderim aynı
Günlerim aynı, Geceler aynı
Sarı saçlım hasretimsin sen
Karadantel sokağında ben
Kapımda akşam gülleri mateminle tutuşurken

Dumanım aynı, Ateşim aynı
Bulutlar aynı, Gözyaşım aynı
Sarı saçlım hasretimsin sen
Karadantel sokağında ben
Kapımda akşam gülleri mateminle tutuşurken

Kankırmızı gözlerimden
Sancıların gelip geçer
Kim üzülür kim bekler seni
Ben tabii ki ben birtanem
Ter içinde İçim bileylenir
Kankırmızı gözlerimden
Sancıların gelip geçer
Kim üşütür kim yakar beni
Sen tabii ki, Sen birtanem
Ter içinde İçim bileylenir

Bu kaçıncı çalınışı kapımın
Bu kaçıncı sen değilsin başkası
Peşimde mazinin ayak sesleri
Nelerden vazgeçiyoruz bir düşünsene
Kırık kalpler üstüne kuruyoruz birşey
Bu kalleşlik belki bana yakışmıyor ama
Sarı saçlarından sen suçlusun

Leave the bourbon on the shelf
And I’ll drink it by myself
And I love you endlessly
But darling don’t you see I’m not satisfied
Until I hold you tight
Give me one more chance tonight
And I swear I’ll make it right.
But you ain’t got time for this
And that wreckin bell is ringin
And I’m not satisfied
until I hold you…

I can’t even escape you in my sleep
when all I need is rest,
knowing when I wake up
I can’t watch you get dressed
and pretend I’m sleeping and imagine you with child.

A suggestion often made by me and by you always reviled.
I wanted to watch your body change and loosen all your clothes.
To hold a new-born baby with your eyes and my nose.
I suppose that was the first sign
that you never really were mine.
My twisted spine is aching now
this bed’s got so much space.

In direct contrast to my mind which is cluttered with your face.
You’re the girl I loved before I fucked and that’s so rare.
So I’ll help you leave your home while you decide if you still care.

I really thought we never could end.
Or at least I’d always be your good friend.
But then I think about what you’ve done
and his tongue pressed against your tongue.
Your bodies together in our bed.

His cock in your cunt, his cock in your head.
And instead of a new platonic future for you and me
I hope you get an abortion or at least an STD.

When out with married friends I sat with them on the bus.
I watched the way they were and that could never have been us.
So the girl I loved before I fucked you’ll always be.
But the woman you’ve grown into is no woman for me.

Diddy’s Group Dirty Money Releases “Angels” Music Video from the.LIFE Files on Vimeo.

Came from the heavens just to sing a song for you
To the rythym of my love for you, and now it’s beating slow, and you know
this the end of the road when i sing this slow song for you you
And love was nothin but another gun for you
And I would hide it in my hopeless soul
I’m not afraid to go down the road where we go, i don’t know, you can hear them callin, don’t you, when the angels call like

Kimseyi aramadım başka. Şurada otur iki dakika. Biraz akıl ver diye sesini duymak istedim. Kulaklarım tamamen sana dikkat kesilmiş durumda. Ama sen gelmiş yine aynı şeyleri anlatıyorsun bana. Yetmedi mi ulan aylardır duyduklarım? Herkes aşk profesörü ya… Herkes aynısını söylüyor. Hadi sana inanırım. Büyük adamsın vesselam…

Ama olay bu kadar kolay değil. Burada bana dediklerini kendin yaptın mı acaba? Bana çok şey anlatmıyorsun ya… Merak da etmiyorum. İnsanların bana yapmasını sevmediğim şeyleri onlara yapmam. Sormuyorum. Acı senin, dert senin. İstersen anlat.

Bak ben sana anlattım geceler boyu…

Biliyorum iyiliğimi istiyorsun… Bunları söylerken…

Ey Jeff Buckley! Bu söylediklerin bir şarkının sözleri gibi adeta… Acaba…

while this town is busy sleeping
all the noise has died away
i walk the streets to stop my weeping
‘cause she’ll never change her ways

don’t fool yourself
she was heartache from the moment that you met her
my heart is frozen still
as i try to find the will to forget her somehow
oh i think i’ve forgotten her now

her love is a rose pale and dying
dropping her petals and men unknown
all full of wine the world before her
was sober with no place to go

oh my tears are falling down as i try to forget
her love was a joke from the day that we met
all of the words all of the men
all of my pain when i think back to when
remember her hair as it shone in the sun
the smell of the bed when i knew what she’d done
tell yourself over and over you wont ever need her again

oh
she was heartache from the day that i first met her
my heart is frozen still
as i try to find the will to forget you somehow
cause i know you’re somewhere out there right now